Disillusioned

Today, I seem to be disillusioned. Not sure why, but it's one of those days where everything you have worked towards suddenly seems pointless. Ever have one of those days? (And don't answer "no!")

Disillusioned with everything but Buddhism and baseball that is. I had a blast working my first shift as a base umpire last night at my daughter's little league game. What a hoot! I can't wait until the next game.

And the Buddhism? Well, I guess there is some disillusionment there as well (I am seriously considering parting ways with Shambhala). But if there is one thing ngondro does for you, it connects you with the real truth of things. And that will never let you down (right?). In that sense, I guess becoming disillusioned can be seen as a sign of progress.

I just wish it didn't hurt the knees so much to make progress.